Leaving.

People always leave. Physically or mentally.

Making new acquaintances is fun, but not without a down side. It makes leaving harder.

I'm still trying not to care. At least on the outside.

每天傍晚

偶尔傍晚驾车，看见的都是疲累和沉闷。很多东西在橙色的天空下，都变得很down.

她超瘦，走路超慢。黄昏嘛，一个人散步就是要慢。她脸带忧愁，尤其在橙色的天空下。看起来心里有一些遗憾，解不开的一对心事。还是走得很慢。

他踏着脚车，走在路中间，也是很慢。他边看风景，边挡着后面的车。橙色的天空把他年轻化，如果不看牙齿和头顶的话。

傍晚一个人在外，让心结被橙色的天空照得更刺眼。

相遇时，她只能对他微笑。心里说，我们都老了。

有些后悔的事，只方便在月光下独子回首。

And If You Ever

We see things they'll never see. We take pride in things we never did. We set sail to places they've never been to. We hit lows when they're at their highs.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were younger? Wouldn't it be nice if we say what we need to say? Maybe we'll never be all the things that we wanna be. But i guess it's time to find out why.

Champagne Supernova

Been a busy month since i was last here.

Oh right, looking back at my new year wishes from last year really shocked the hell out of me.
I made all my wishes come true. Including getting 4As. What a nerd. Anyway getting the results felt like the scene in The Pursuit of Happyness where Will Smith got his job. Somehow i know I made the right choice. Doubters and haters can shove it up.

Now that the wait is over, I have no idea what to do next. Thought the long break would give me an idea of where my interests lie. But all i wanna do is stay the same and never grow up.

Recently I've got a lot to talk about. But no suitable candidate to talk to. Too provoking duh.

I'll just have a champagne supernova in the mean time.

What do I like to do?

It's hard when you're a young man just about to live your 20s. In a guy's 20s, he either makes it or he doesn't, there are no in-betweens. Most guys have no idea of what they're doing at 20. Yea, me neither. This might just be the longest period of time where i have absolutely nothing to do and nowhere to be. They say this is the right time to seriously plan for your future. Heck, I don't even know what to do tomorrow, don't even ask me what course I'm going to do. I don't have any idea, I don't wanna think about it. I just don't have the passion right now. If a man without his passion is a man without his dick, I'm dickless right now. Just the thought of transition is scaring me. I don't wanna go into a hostile environment. I'm still reluctant to grow up. That's why I've become kinda boring lately. I like to do things that i used to do, with people i used to do it with, and at places i used to do it in. It's just my way of resisting change.

But now, it's time to sleep.

6AS1

Somehow i feel like i need to write something about this.

All those complicated and mixed feelings inside me these few days deserve an article.

Graduating never gets better, even the second time around. Especially having a class that feels like home. Somehow everyone just clicked. I'd proudly claim this is the tightest class i've ever seen, never mind just knowing each other for a short period of one and a half year. You can almost smell the bonds in the atmosphere.

Looking through all the group photos of our so-called gatherings really warms my heart. I mean, who the hell have gatherings like 10 times a year when you're still together?

This has gotta be one of the best photos ever.

Come to think of it, i wasn't really familiar with any of these people in the first place. It wasn't my comfort zone. Well, some people here are really kinda weird, you can even tell from the picture. Not to say i'm extremely normal, but still... Anyhow, I learned alot from them. And suddenly one and a half year went by just like that, class was dismissed just like that. Just when i start to realise how uncomfortable it is without my daily dose of 6AS1.

I guess all i can do now is just viewing every picture and recalling every little bit of memories with these people so they don't fade soon. And i hope i don't have to lose touch with you, it feels kinda good to have you around. =D

话说回来

五月二十三日
-LOST 大结局。 六年后终于可以‘move on' 了。

五月二十四至二十九
-去了新加坡参加国际数学比赛，获益不浅，看到很多，也学了很多。

六月五日
-参加了人生第一场五月天演唱会。 不，其实是个万人K房。这应该会是人生中最难忘的事。

七月九日
-我生日，得到了一陀不锈铁。

其余的百多天
- 享受人生。

我想上几个月应该都过得满充实的，毕竟我也差不多忘了这个角落。
有朝一日我会把这个角落完全抛在脑外。 =D


I guess it's about time to focus on the pile loads of freak books. I think i can do it. No, actually i know i can do it. Well, I'll just try my best anyway.