Watched Mayday on TV just now. Omaika...i miss those times. Things really changed a lot since graduating. No more Thursday night band practice. Watching other bands live their dreams together and have long-lasting relationships makes me feel sorrow, regrets. Should have done more back then. No accomplishments? Oh please. Never really acted like i care, though that's MY DREAM. Come on, like who doesn't wanna be a rockstar? =( I even have dust on my drumsticks. Drumpads? New CNY home for dear spiders. I guess all those years of hard works have to go wasted? It's all about work, money and stuffs right now that i don't have a single day to jam. Oh right, i don't have one. Perhaps it's all just a silly childhood dream and i just don't have what it takes? Duh.


Can't i just play music and do nothing else?

九號球
作詞：阿信 作曲：怪獸

逃走 翻過圍牆
我只能逃走 從教室裡頭
奔向自由 熟悉角落
有人在等我 有挑釁的笑容

今天誰先開球
讓誰嚐點苦頭
綠色地平線上
我撞著彩色墮落

從前 書包很滿
裝不下的夢 就丟了一些
未來我們 要怎麼活
凝視著白球 暫時我不去想

天空漸漸變紅
影子爬滿球桌
輸贏沒有結果
像人生難以捉摸

也許我這一杆
又沒辦法進球
就像我的生活
一直在出差錯

也許我這一生
始終在追逐那顆九號球
卻忘了 是誰在愛我
卻忘了 是誰在罩著我

Went back home from work the other way and it felt like driving into a forgotten old ghost town. Electricity of the whole town was cut short for some unknown reason. Of four blocks of apartments in the area only ours has a broken and out-of-service generator or something. So my apartment was virtually invisible. Not a cool feature at night. And not so surprisingly the lift can't fly without electricity so we climbed eight floors. DUH. Reached home all sweaty with no fans or air-con. Luckily i have this :
Saves my day!
Bathed in the dark with freaking cold water. And then realized how much have we been dependent towards electricity. Without it you can't cook, you can't sleep tight, can't watch porn. Some can't even get love without electricity.

You lived in brightness for so long you forgot how darkness and pale black look like. It felt so alone, so empty, so helpless. Strange enough she's the only one i wanted to talk to during these times. Looks like lonely boy is still lonely boy after all.

Oh ya i think i'm gonna make a new pair of specs, it sucks watching people getting new specs everyday. =.= So drop by sometimes and help me choose one, to whomever reading this.


N

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Curious_Case_of_Benjamin_Button_(film)

Watched this because i thought it's some kind of sci-fi and it's got Brad Pitt.XD Turns out i nearly cried for it. In a nutshell Benjamin was born appearing old and 'grew younger'. The whole movie is about his experiences being the only one who gets younger over age and the people he came across in his life. Imagine him dying in the arms of his beloved, her as an old lady and him as an infant! I'm not giving any more spoilers here, seriously everyone should watch this, worth spending two and a half hour for a beautiful story like this.

Quoted from the movie : #We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us? #

#For what it's worth, it's never too late, or in my case too early - to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit; stop whenever you want. You can change, or stay the same - there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. #


Song of the Day : I Miss You by Blink 182

Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in backround of the morgue
The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head
I Miss You




Neo

Damn tired. So this is called working?


Now, something extracted from keaveooi's blog. Well there's not much grammar mistakes, just one or two in every sentence, (=P) but it's very true. Here it goes.


How Friendship Breaks


The reason for the break of friendship is very simple.These are the silly reasons for that

1.Both the friends think the other is busy to call and contact.and will not contact thinking that may be disturbing to him.then time pass on.They forget to contact further.

2.Next they think why should I contact now,let the other friend call me.The ego comes
in between friendship.Thus time pass on to months and at times years.Thus weakness the bondage.They forget each other in their day today work.

So friends do not make these silly excuses to break Friendship.Friendship is like our back bone to make us stand straight.Now a days communication is very much advanced so can make a phone call and say Hi------.or E-mail each other.



Song of the day -- Busy being Fabulous by Eagles

I came home to an empty house
And I found your little note
"Don't wait up for me tonight"
And that was all she wrote

Do you think I don't know that you're out on the town
With all of your high-rollin' friends?
What do you do when you come up empty?
Where do you go when the party ends?

And you were just too busy being fabulous
Too busy to think about us
I don't know what you were dreaming of
Somehow you forgot about love
And you were just too busy being fabulous, uh-huh

A little time in the country
A day or two to slow down
A bottle of wine and a walk in the moonlight
Maybe some foolin' around

But you think time is just a magazine
And money's just a thrill
I've waited so long for you to change your way of livin'
Now I realize that you never will

'Cause you were just too busy being fabulous
Too busy to think about us
Lookin' for something you'll never find
You'll never know what you left behind
'Cause you were just too busy being fabulous, uh-huh

You tell a joke and everybody's laughin'
That's something you know how to do
You've always been the life of the party
But now my baby, the joke is on you

'Cause you were just too busy being fabulous
Too busy to think about us
Running after something that never comes
What in the world are you runnin' from?

And you were just too busy being fabulous
Too busy to think about us
To drink the wine from your winner's cup
To notice the children were growin' up

And you were just too busy being fabulous
Too busy, too busy
Too busy
Aw, baby

You don't know???

Sucks huh? Doing something you're not in the least bit good at, and having doubts to speak every word. Duh. Helpless when you don't have a fucking clue. Like i just replaced my penis with a vagina, need to ask others before doing it, or screw it otherwise. Zzz. Perhaps i'm finally out of my comfort zone? I've been living in the matrix? But it gets better everyday, with you guys, it really does. =D I just need time to grow up.


Now i know why people always claim that life as a student is the most enjoyable days of one's life. Because it really is the most enjoyable days of my life. #It's the day i found it won't be the same.#(these words just happen to come out from the radio)


Song of the Day - I Hate This Song by Secondhand Serenade

Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you’re tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I’m not weak,
This situation is bleak
And your puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Until Sunday I’ll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday’s not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I’m feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don’t need
The sadness they have seen
But you’re way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can’t find
The moment you said goodbye

This is becoming a problem I’m hurting it’s unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You’re under my skin
You’re breaking in
And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to loose

Until Sunday I’ll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday’s not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

UUrrrghhh.


You gonna stay like this forever? Mang jor...this is shit dipping pathetic. You're just going to end up alone and jerk off watching some short porno trailers. Seriously, you need to be like the you few years back. You can do it back then, you can do it now. You just need a good kickstart. Try Nescafe? Fuck you. Don't act like you don't care.

Song of The Day - I Promise by Stacie Orrico

Well I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Well I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Well I'll be the one that's by your side


Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will


When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Well I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Well I'll be the one that's there to hold


Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will


And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you


Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will


I promise
I promise
When you call me
I promise
I promise I will

Stared at my Rubik's Cube and suddenly remembered a post earlier about our class competition's fastest times. Well everyone urged me to 'update' it coz we're not Cube dummies anymore. Heh. Actually all of us don't have problems solving it under a minute anymore. And me being the champ for my 40s...yippie! (Hope Jacob doesn't reach my blog.) Really miss those times. ='D


Song of the Day : See You Soon by Coldplay

So you lost your trust
And you never should have
No,you never should have
But don't break your back
If you ever see this
But don't answer that
In a bullet proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

So they came for you
They came snapping at your heels
They come snapping at your heels
But don't break your back
If you ever say this
But don't answer that

In a bullet proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon

In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon
And oh,

And oh, you lost your trust
And oh, you lost your trust
No, don't lose your trust
No, you lost your trust



Neo, The One.

Apparently i kinda 'lost' my job and got it back. =.= So i'll start working on monday, gonna miss those afternoon naps......

Finally watched the Internet Protocol Man, a.k.a Ip Man with Miss Ong just now. He looks cool! Was amused by the fight scenes, probably because i didn't watch movies like this for quite a long time already. Especially loved the scene where Ip Man used a 'keh mo cheng' to 'cheng' the guy. LOL.



It took me five fucking years to realize what i love doing most.
PERFORMING.
Pulses get pumped up everytime i get to perform. Strange enough, i've always acted like i don't really care and it's not such a big deal. In fact it really isn't. But what can i say, playing music with a bunch of close friends in front of an audience, big or small, is really what makes me alive. Nerds, hunks, or hotties, going out the stage, we're all band geeks trying our best in every piece of music to bring some good sound to people. I never have prouder moments than the minutes standing tall as a timpanist. Guess i'm gonna miss my 3 babies much.


Song of The Day -- Empty Apartment by Yellowcard

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay
It's okay






N.E.O

Song of The Day : 突然好想你

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音
不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於 我自己
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行 然後留下 最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息

最怕此生 已經決心自己過 沒有你 卻又突然 聽到你的消息